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It actually does get better.  The darkness, the weight, the feelings. It gets better.  If you stick things out, if you persevere until you get it right, you feel so appreciative for light. You bask in the sun. You bask in your glory.  I view myself and others with beauty.  I look in the mirror and I do not see disheartening disgust.  I talk to people, and don't replay conversations in my head as much as I used to.  I react to things better now. I'm proud of myself - of what I accomplished, of where I'm going.  I've grown so...

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You must always give love.  To others and to yourself.  May your touch be kind.  Your eyes endearing.  Your ears forgiving.  Your heart fragile. Your self strong. 

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I had to hang up on a call with a friend because my reality was starting to hit me. I ended the call right on time. As soon as I hit the end button, tears were rolling down my unnecessarily chubby cheeks.  How can I express this deep darkness I'm feeling? How can I let go of it?I'm getting to the point where I do not even have the energy to write by hand as I have been doing for the past 15 years.  I opened my laptop and logged on to write "Have I lived enough?" I started writing and writing,...

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connect with the metaphysical

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feels weird. weird feels.

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